I hope i’m not the only one where some days I can’t cope.
I’m having one of those days today!
It started off with yet another parental dispute where I was put in the middle again… I’ve got to the stage where I just ignore the phone when my dad’s calling because it’s more likely than not going to be some rubbish I don’t want to get involved in.
Pops decided she didn’t want to nap before toddler group and in fairness she wasn’t that bad during the group considering… All hell broke once we left though! Tantrums, tantrums and bites galore (me, not other kids… not any better though) I’m not standing for that so we came straight home.
Once we get home it gets worse… She literally screamed herself to sleep on the floor so I picked her up to take her coat off and cuddle her but she woke up and just started lashing out.
I thought I would take her up and lay with her to get her to sleep but no… so now she’s in her cot screaming.
It’s moments and days like today I wish I went back to work after having her. I feel horrible saying/thinking it but I just wish I had that break, the chance to miss her and appreciate the time I am with her (I of course love and appreciate her immensely but absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that)
I instantly regret putting Pops in her room and shutting the door as I’ve never wanted to use her bed as a punishment but I needed to have time to calm down myself so now I’ve calmed down the question is to I hold my ground or go get her? If I get her have I undermined myself? The constant guilt and second guessing is sometimes the worst part.
PLEASE tell me I’m not the only one!
Until the next post,
Are and Pops